Guess What?!

In lab today we inserted catheters into dummy's! We irrigated bladders! We irrigated wounds! We packed wounds! YIPEE! It was an exciting day in the lab!

Luckily, we finished up early and I got home right before the kids nap time! That means I got to nap too! Well, sorta, Elijah decided to wake up after only 40 minutes and poop his pants, on my bed!!!! So, nap time was short, way too short considering I work tonight, all night. Hopefully I will be able to get home and sleep an hour before the kids are up for the day because mothering two busy little boys all day after an exhausting week and no sleep the night before can be frustrating. But, its been done before, so I will survive, even if I do break down in tears a few times during the day.

G'night All!

10 Things I Love

I LOVE . . .

1 . . . my quiet time after the kids are in bed- that's when I get to focus on cleaning the house, working out, entering into more giveaways, writing blog entries, catching up on Facebook! And rarely in that order!

2 . . . laying in bed every morning, all snug and warm, nursing my baby Sam. It feels so good to have those few moments, only once a day now, just holding and nurturing him as a baby still!

3 . . The way every night Elijah has to run straight for my bed after his shower, still nakey and dripping wet, to snuggle under the covers to warm up and dry off.

4 . . . watching my family gobble up a nutritious, homemade meal, knowing there is no MSG or any other nastiness in it.

5 . . . the way my kids exclaim "Yummy!!!" was they munch on raw organic broccoli, celery, and carrots! I wonder who they learned this from? *blush* ME!!! *blush*

6 . . how good I feel after a torturous workout!

7 . . . how my boys only want Mama when they are upset or hurt even though I can be so impatient and cross with them at times. They overlook my every fault.

8 . . . the thought that in just a few short months it will be spring!

9 . . .using the onions I grew in my garden last year in every thing I cook! However, my supply is running very low :(

10 . . . living where we live. It may not be perfect, but the location is like NONE other! We are only approximately 5 miles from school (maybe less?) and town, yet we are out in the country! We have a HUGE yard and garden, lots of privacy, lots of room for the kids (and hopefully more chickens this spring) to run wild!

Bad Mama

Is it terrible that I am so sick of the crying and screaming and whining right now that I just want to stop being a mommy?! I just want a few seconds of piece and relaxation. I just want to be able to go to the bathroom without a nosy toddler following me, jabbering non-stop.

I love my kids but right now I could really use a break from them, but seeing as I have nothing to offer anyone and no one is willing to watch them simply for the sake of their mothers sanity I guess I'm stuck where I'm at.

I know its just the lack of sleep talking here (and my 2 year old's lack of sleep!) but I'm still as frustrated as crap with both my kids, the mess and clutter all over the house, and especially with myself for being such a bad mommy that I feel this way.